Support

I'm sorry I've been MIA, I've decided not to tell many people where we are in this cycle so that if I fail I won't have too many people asking about it. Selfish, probably, but this cycle is the hardest one yet. Doctor Behara ordered Clomid 50mg days 3-5, Menopur 75iu on days 5-9, and Ovidrel 250mcg on day 11. The drugs made me more than a little insane, but lucky for Jason I was out of town in Utah with my mom, aunts, and grandma enjoying BYU Education Week. I did all my shots myself except for the Ovidrel (thanks Jason!) and felt pretty badA doing it too. Our CD10 ultrasound showed two follicles on each side- one large and one small. Fingers crosses that at least one of them made it to the right place at the right time.

I've said this before, but I need to say it again. I am so thankful to have my IG girls. I came home from Utah to four packages and cards waiting for me, and got even more the next day. It has been SO hard playing the waiting game and I am so thankful for the support that they give me. I am lucky enough to have one amazing IG lady who lives just around the corner and who also goes to my clinic. We met up for ice cream last night and ended up talking and laughing for two hours. She is so incredibly strong- coming back from a miscarriage and d&c and is now waiting on the results for her second IUI. I could NOT get over such a loss!! I don't know that I could try again. She said that she feels like my journey is harder because she hates needles and shots and the shots are what skeeve her out. It amazes me how we are all so strong in our own ways and that each of us admires the others for their bravery and faith. I think that there are times that all of us think we could not do what others have done, and yet, we may end up doing it. I never thought I would be injecting myself with hormones for a week to get my body to conceive a child. I never thought I COULD do that. I have a huge fear of needles. What scares me is doing IUI or IVF- I don't think I could handle the pressure of spending the money we don't have and then not being pregnant or losing the pregnancy. I really believe that we are not tested above what we have the ability to endure or overcome.

1 Nephi 3:7 And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded,for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.


That being said... I wish Heavenly Father didn't think I was so capable.

"I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish that He didn’t trust me so much.” ~Blessed Mother Teresa